Why This Video Changed Everything
In April, I announced that we were launching a YouTube channel. I was excited, proud—and completely stuck.
Weeks went by, then months. I still couldn’t bring myself to create a single video. Every time I sat down to film, something in me shut down. I kept telling myself it was timing, tech, or not knowing what to say. But deep down, I knew it was something else.
Then, I got some tough love from ChatGPT—of all places.
And it cracked something open.
It made me face the limiting beliefs I’ve been carrying for years… beliefs I had mistaken for permanent parts of who I was:
- That I needed to have everything figured out before I started
- That it was safer to stay small
- That I was too much and not enough, all at once
These beliefs didn’t just hold me back as a creator—they were deeply connected to how I was raised, how I protected myself growing up, and how I learned to measure my worth.
These beliefs didn’t just hold me back as a creator—they were deeply connected to how I was raised, how I protected myself growing up, and how I learned to measure my worth.
It hit even harder when I realized how these patterns were showing up in KidsGiving Press. I saw the same warning signs that once held me and my old business, House of Playful Soul, back. But I could live with letting myself down.
What I couldn’t live with was watching those same fears threaten something so close to my heart—something that involved my kids, our story, and a mission to break cycles, not repeat them.
That realization wrecked me… and it woke me up.
Because I know I’m not the only parent trying to do this.
To show up better for our kids.
To break generational trauma while still healing our own inner child.
To rewrite the story in real-time, even when we’re still hurting.
That’s why the tough love turned into something bigger: transformation.
It’s slow. Some days it doesn’t feel like anything’s happening. But it’s happening.
And that’s enough.
So I gave myself permission—
🌱 To be enough.
🌱 To try, even if I didn’t have it all figured out.
🌱 To show up, messy and hopeful.
🌱 To shine a light on the heart we poured into our book, our mission, and this work as a family.
To some, it’s a silly little video. But to me, it’s a symbol. A start. A shift.
It’s the result of healing, choosing courage, and honoring the little kid inside me who was always afraid to be seen.
We’re still figuring it out. But we’re doing it—together.
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